break my heart.

Here i am 12:27AM. feeling like i have a newborn again. It all started yesterday. Hudson went down at his normal bedtime of 7:30 everything was good then came 11... screaming. Deathly screaming. Usually if Hudson ever cries during the night its because he cant find his paci. Jordan rush's in, and he is standing up so he gets him out and rocks him then puts him back in bed. 2 min later screaming. This reapeats over and over for 2 hours. I decide in my mind that maybe he is teething, felt his gums didnt really feel anything new but decided to give him a little advil. By this time its 3am and jordan and i decide what the heck we will let him sleep with us. BIG NO NO IN MY MIND. but i was tired and all Hudson wanted was to be snuggled. Today has been a long but good day. We went to the temple tonight, got a babysitter, got home and hudson was sound asleep like normal and went to bed at his normal time. Well its happening AGAIN! But tonight is different im letting him sob it out. Now stop right there before you start thinking im a mean mom. I DID go in, make sure everything was ok, he didnt eat dinner great so i fed him some toast and milk, rocked him, loved him, turned on his sleep sheep and said prayers. Everything was fine... then the screaming started. Jordan and i sat here and decided "ok this is ridiculous." We cant have another night like last night. So now i sit here at 12:41AM with a baby thats finally done sobbing but all i want to do is go in there and kiss him and hug him. It really breaks my heart but Hudson has been the best sleeper since he was six weeks. He adores his crib, whenever i put him in it he never makes a peep(usually just a look like ahhh my bed) and i am so nervous by letting him come in our bed during this little meltdown phase that he wont be the hudson that sleeps 12 hours straight in his crib. Its hard being a parent. Just little decisions like this. Remember how at 12:41 i wrote he was not crying anymore well its 12:45 and he is SCREAMING his head off again. I am at a loss. I feel like one hopeless mom right now. Its like he is scared of something. He just wants us to hold him and usually he just stares up at you with those big blue eyes like "please dont leave me". One mom in me is gonna break down and cuddle him all night but the other mom in me says stay strong. So maybe Ill just let dad deal with it. Has anyone experienced this? PLEASE tell me it will be done in no time. MOM NEEDS HER SLEEEEEEP.