dumped cherrios and milk on the floor, nail polish shattered across the kitchen, black handprints up your stairs, chocolate z-bar smashed in your{brand new}carpet, ink colored on your brand new chair, peanut butter in your hair, high pitch scream in the car for miles upon miles, drity little footprints across the newly mopped floors. Motherhood takes a little bit of patience. Most days i smile and happily clean it up, some days im simply more patient. A couple weeks ago i saw a box in the laundry room that was waiting for me to unpack, so i decided why not. In the box was some nail polish. Hudson has an obsession with colors and holding things so of course he loves nail polish. Well boys+nail polish= a bad thing. What did he do with it? he chucked that baby across the kitchen and it shattered...everywhere. Well i snapped, hudson cried, went upstairs. I decied to calm down, hurry and wipe it up off my cabinents and floor, and take a big long deep breathe. When i went upstairs to find hudson i couldnt find him anywhere, i then remembered he loves my closet. There i found him in the dark closet with the door shut and the biggest sad face, it broke. my. heart. I felt so bad and so sad. That day i added another resolution to my list. Be patient with Hudson when things like that happen.
The messes, the screaming in the car, the broken things... i dont want those things to go away because so many other things out weigh those. The 'i love you mommy", or the way he tucks his hands into my body when we get out of the car and its cold, his head on my shouler, his smile, the funny things he says, the thank yous and the sorrys, the hugs and kisses, the laughs and the snuggles, just all the little things that make every mess and broken thing worth it. Hudson seriously makes me cry... you know that i just love you so much i could cry. Everyday i am so beyond thankful i was blessed with this spirit. That heavenly father trusts me with such a jewel. I am beyond blessed and theres no reason i cant be more patient when not so fun things happen. Hudson is my buddy, and i couldnt imagine life without him. These next 10 weeks are the last 10 weeks i have with just the two of us. Just the two of us eating breakfast and snuggling watching elmo...and we are gonna soak them up.
